radiant little monsters

Since we last talked, I’ve morphed into a part-time insomniac. I am still sick. I took a “How anxious are you?” quiz (stupid, stupid, stupid) and ranked severe. In unrelated news, I have sworn off symptom-googling. This is the first long-term illness that I really remember. It is surprisingly lonely, with a touch of scary. I want normalcy for Christmas. You may […]

there shall be showers of blessings

One of my college roommates told me of a sermon she once heard about trees — that the harder the wind blows in their branches, the further they spread their roots into the ground. She thought of this lesson every time she walked past the biggest, most beautiful tree rising above our campus chapel. She would meditate on […]

affirmation monster

I got my antibiotics, along with a mild narcotic, strictly for sleeping purposes. And there was no pleading or crawling down the hallways, weeping or gnashing my teeth; all my practice was in vain. The doctor’s exact words were, “There’s no reason to torture you any longer.” I squeaked something polite and unfitting like, “Thank […]

new pants

I’ve not blogged lately because I’ve not been resting lately. I haven’t done a whole lot of thinking or reading or praying or running or talking; I mostly have rested and wished I was resting. Today a sweet little girl said her belly hurt, began to crawl into my lap, and threw up on me. […]